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The Torturous question

Question:

It seems to me that everyday is a struggle for me. No matter what I’m doing, no matter where I’m at, no matter who I’m with it’s a struggle. I have a hard time concentrating and remembering things that happened a few hours ago. I was bulimic for over 7 years and during that time I was faced with a depression so strong I couldn’t think of anything else except for how much better off I would be if I had the guts to commit suicide. I recovered from Bulimia but not the depression. After months of therapy and agonizing torture of trying to get my mind back into reality, I concluded that I did not recover from the depression associated with Bulimia and that it will stay and always will be a part of my life. The main question in my life is why? What causes me to be depressed? I have never been sexually abused,  I have a wonderful close family who loves me and who I adore. I am by no means rich, but we do have a beautful home and we all drive nice cars and we really never had to want for anything. I have good friends, good job, so what the hell is wrong with me??????? I can’t escape the feeling of inadecuacy.(however you spell it)  I feel worthless and fat.  I have a hard time keeping up a conversation cause I’m so panicked into constantly thinking about what the other person is thinking about me at that moment.  I have a very low self esteem and wish I could do something about it, Am I crazy? Am I alone? I can’t talk to anyone about this cause I don’t feel they would understand. I just want to know the answer to my question, the question that tortures me. It’s a simple question, who can give me the answer?  The question is…Why am I depressed? If anyone can help me, I sure would appreciate any comments or advice. Thank you so much in advance.

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- Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – It seems to me that everyday is a struggle for me. No matter what I’m doing, no matter where I’m at, no matter who I’m with it’s a struggle. I have a hard time concentrating and remembering things that happened a few hours ago. I was bulimic for over 7 years and during that time I was faced with a depression so strong I couldn’t think of anything else except for how much better off I would be if I had the guts to commit suicide. I recovered from Bulimia but not the depression. After months of therapy and agonizing torture of trying to get my mind back into reality, I concluded that I did not recover from the depression associated with Bulimia and that it will stay and always will be a part of my life. The main question in my life is why? What causes me to be depressed? I have never been sexually abused,  I have a wonderful close family who loves me and who I adore. I am by no means rich, but we do have a beautful home and we all drive nice cars and we really never had to want for anything. I have good friends, good job, so what the hell is wrong with me??????? I can’t escape the feeling of inadecuacy.(however you spell it)  I feel worthless and fat.  I have a hard time keeping up a conversation cause I’m so panicked into constantly thinking about what the other person is thinking about me at that moment.  I have a very low self esteem and wish I could do something about it, Am I crazy? Am I alone? I can’t talk to anyone about this cause I don’t feel they would understand. I just want to know the answer to my question, the question that tortures me. It’s a simple question, who can give me the answer?  The question is…Why am I depressed? If anyone can help me, I sure would appreciate any comments or advice. Thank you so much in advance.

 Hi: What causes depression is debateable even among experts but if you were to see a psychiatrist or therapist about your suspected depression one of the first things they’s do is dig into your past to find out if there are any problems with depression with your mother, father, grandparents,etc.  And this would include things like alchoholism, drug addiction, criminal activity, because turning to these things often mask a depression.  For the medical person, major depression is a chemical imbalance in the brain that is triggered by circumstances that occurr in life.  Major depression is most likely a genetic condition.  People are predisposed to it.  If there are aren’t any family problems, you might want to consult a mental health professional because sometimes the causes are burried so deep inside of you. only professional can find the root.  If you still dwell on any kind of suicidal ideation, the definitely consult someone.  Hope this helps. Dave

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wow you sure ask tough questions! but since i’m feeling half-way medium today, i’ll give it a shot! ((((((((((((((((((((Jpebbles)))))))))))))))))))))) first a good hug to get it off to a good start gonna snip parts that i can’t respond to It seems to me that everyday is a struggle for me. No matter what I’m doing, no matter where I’m at, no matter who I’m with it’s a struggle. *sigh* i hear you

and the struggle isn’t always the SAME, either some days it’s a struggle to stay alive some days it’s a struggle not to cry all day long some days it’s a sturggle not to sit in front of the tv all day some days it’s a struggle to get anything, even the littleist (sp?) thing done. The main question in my life is why? What causes me to be depressed? I have never been sexually abused,  I have a wonderful close family who loves me and who I adore. I am by no means rich, but we do have a beautful home and we all drive nice cars and we really never had to want for anything. I have good friends, good job, so what the hell is wrong with me???????

i don’t know what the hell is wrong with you, but whatever it is, it must be the same thing that is the hell wrong with me, cuz i’m in the same not-so-awful-but-suicidal boat u are in! I can’t escape the feeling of inadecuacy.(however you spell it)  I feel worthless and fat.  I have a hard time keeping up a conversation cause I’m so panicked into constantly thinking about what the other person is thinking about me at that moment.  I have a very low self esteem and wish I could do something about it,

<nod nod nod nod ditto Am I crazy? Am I alone? I can’t talk to anyone about this cause I don’t feel they would understand. I just want to know the answer to my question, the question that tortures me. It’s a simple question, who can give me the answer?  The question is…Why am I depressed? If anyone can help me, I sure would appreciate any comments or advice. Thank you so much in advance.

sorry, i can’t give u an answer, but i’m happy to sit here & listen which is more than the normies can give, sometimes and you’ve got a better shot at us understanding what you’re saying then those nasty shiney happy people (giggle) sorry this post wasn’t really that HELPFUL but i wanted u to know somebody read it & listened & agreed…. Spider

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