House to myself, but too depresssed to enjoy it…
Question:
I hope your depression has lightened up since last night. Your always so good at listening and giving a pat on the back or a hug. Here’s one for you (((( ))))), hoping that you are better today. – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – My husband took all 3 girls to a ballgame 2 hours away (my daughter’s high school football team is in the playoffs, so that’s why they went), and I was so looking forward to this time alone. But I’m so depressed I can hardly stand it! As I watched them drive away, I just couldn’t keep from crying. I just want to go to bed and stay there til they get back, and that makes me so mad! I wanted to enjoy this break! To do something fun. Go somewhere even. But I can’t move. :-( Gosh, it hurts so much this afternoon that I feel like I’m being absolutely smothered by it. And that crushing feeling on my chest won’t lift. And that desperate urge to SI won’t leave me be! I’ve got to find some healthy relief. Oh, how I wanted to enjoy this evening alone. Instead, I just want to shrivel up and go away and pretend I don’t exist. I long for non existance!!!! <sigh Gosh, it’s like labor pains…you forget how horrendous the worst of the pains are until they return. You think you remember, but you don’t. And then they knock the breath out of you, and you say, "oh yeah…this is what it felt like!" And you thank God that you can’t remember how bad it hurt once it lets up again. If you could remember, you’d never make it. Just like moms. If we could actually remember what labor felt like, we’d never have more than one child. It’s a blessing to not remember the worst of the pain. But when it’s there, oh it’s pure hell. Dying for relief…. Cindy
Response:
Cindy, your post makes it extremely clear just how depressed you are. Have you ever considered using the supplement SAM-E to help alleviate your depression? Europeans have been using SAM-E for 20 years to successfully treat depression, and it just entered the U.S. market 2 years ago. It is very effective. You can find more information on SAM-E at: http://www.healingdaily.com/conditions/sam-e-for-depression-and-liver… fication-1.htm Hope this helps, Marc
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – My husband took all 3 girls to a ballgame 2 hours away (my daughter’s high school football team is in the playoffs, so that’s why they went), and I was so looking forward to this time alone. But I’m so depressed I can hardly stand it! As I watched them drive away, I just couldn’t keep from crying. I just want to go to bed and stay there til they get back, and that makes me so mad! I wanted to enjoy this break! To do something fun. Go somewhere even. But I can’t move. :-( Gosh, it hurts so much this afternoon that I feel like I’m being absolutely smothered by it. And that crushing feeling on my chest won’t lift. And that desperate urge to SI won’t leave me be! I’ve got to find some healthy relief. Oh, how I wanted to enjoy this evening alone. Instead, I just want to shrivel up and go away and pretend I don’t exist. I long for non existance!!!! <sigh Gosh, it’s like labor pains…you forget how horrendous the worst of the pains are until they return. You think you remember, but you don’t. And then they knock the breath out of you, and you say, "oh yeah…this is what it felt like!" And you thank God that you can’t remember how bad it hurt once it lets up again. If you could remember, you’d never make it. Just like moms. If we could actually remember what labor felt like, we’d never have more than one child. It’s a blessing to not remember the worst of the pain. But when it’s there, oh it’s pure hell. Dying for relief…. Cindy
Response:
alt.support.depression: snip Dying for relief….
Sometimes, I think it helps to be able to let the tears flow, and hide under the duvet for a while; I feel better for it afterwards, and the mood doesn’t always last as long as I expect. If you’ve been ‘holding it in’ for a while, to get through the day or the week, then perhaps you need to ‘let it out’. — — Whiskers
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My husband took all 3 girls to a ballgame 2 hours away (my daughter’s high school football team is in the playoffs, so that’s why they went), and I was so looking forward to this time alone. But I’m so depressed I can hardly stand it! As I watched them drive away, I just couldn’t keep from crying. I just want to go to bed and stay there til they get back, and that makes me so mad! I wanted to enjoy this break! To do something fun. Go somewhere even. But I can’t move. :-( Gosh, it hurts so much this afternoon that I feel like I’m being absolutely smothered by it. And that crushing feeling on my chest won’t lift. And that desperate urge to SI won’t leave me be! I’ve got to find some healthy relief. Oh, how I wanted to enjoy this evening alone. Instead, I just want to shrivel up and go away and pretend I don’t exist. I long for non existance!!!! <sigh Gosh, it’s like labor pains…you forget how horrendous the worst of the pains are until they return. You think you remember, but you don’t. And then they knock the breath out of you, and you say, "oh yeah…this is what it felt like!" And you thank God that you can’t remember how bad it hurt once it lets up again. If you could remember, you’d never make it. Just like moms. If we could actually remember what labor felt like, we’d never have more than one child. It’s a blessing to not remember the worst of the pain. But when it’s there, oh it’s pure hell. Dying for relief…. Cindy
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