Depression Learning

CUTTING (part 2)

Question:

 Well, I’m not going to be judgemental.  I’m glad you have a therapist you trust.  I hope you can get a good pdoc.  I am hopeful my appointment goes well next week.  I hear this pdoc at least smiles. I can only relate to the cutting a little.  I haven’t partaken in any of that since my teens.  I’m now 43.  One guy in my therapy group is cutting, he does not cause serious injury to himself.  Do you really cut deep or is it just somewhat superficial?  I’m sure this is an issue with your Doc and therapist so I won’t even go there with you.  Hey , let me know about that new pdoc. Good luck…… Dave

Response:

Dearest Tigger, Please FORGIVE ME for having so quickly jumped to conclusions about your post. Thank you for your kind email which explained, further, what you meant.  In my current state of mind, I felt very judged and quickly jumped to this conclusion; lashing out at you in such a childish fashion.

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Dear Tomboy, Jesus I hope you don’t think that I have been ignoring this. I’ve been extremely busy (which I will post about later) and have just now started reading the 195 posts that have been added since I last read the group. Don’t worry about what happened ok. I should have written what I sent you via e-mail in the first place rather than just saying to get rid of the razors. I’m sorry I didn’t take the time to make a more thoughtful reply in my first response. Thank you for your support and forgiveness, and I hope that you are doing well. Tigger bouncy, trouncy, flouncy, pouncy, fun, fun, fun, fun, FUN!!!

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Hi there. I hope things with your new psychologist goes okay. Will keep thinking positive vibes for you. What you say really strikes a cord with me to a degree, I have this trouble when i am alone and feeling really suicidal I think alot about it when I am alone in the house. It is hard I know. All my best, taek acre of yourself. laura : I am in pain and anguish.  I am going to see a NEW psychiatrist tomorrow. I’m : FRIGHTENED!  The last one abandoned me, plain and simple but I know it was his : problem.  How will I know if she’s not a kook? : : I will be alone for almost a week housesitting.  I want to cut.  I am so : anxious.  I don’t know what to do but call my therapist who will either ask me : to come in (for what???)  I stopped cutting long enough for the last wounds to : heal but I will be alone and no one will see the bandaids to hide the marks I : have made.  I feel like a child, unsupervised.  I don’t know what to do. I’m : almost middle age now and feel like I want to call my parents and see if one of : them will go with me to see the new psychiatrist "Mommy Hold my hand" I’m so : confused and depressed that I can’t think right.   : : SOMEONE WRITE, POST, JUST TALK TO ME.  NO ADVICE NEEDED; JUST A FRIENDLY NOTE? : : :

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Dear Dave, I thank you for your response and, most of all, for not being judgmental.  It is the last thing that I need right now.  I have a doctor and therapist who DO care….finding a psychiatrist, however, has been another thing.  What the last one did was appalling. Please let me know how it goes with your new guy and I will let you know how it goes with mine, K?  Maybe we can all work to get through this together.  Sincerely, Elaine

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Dear Tigger, I have sent you an email in response to this post.  With all due respect, however, pfffffft!  Gee, thanks for your input and lack of judgment.

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I am in pain and anguish.  I am going to see a NEW psychiatrist tomorrow. I’m FRIGHTENED! <snip feel like I want to call my parents and see if one of them will go with me to see the new psychiatrist "Mommy Hold my hand"  

Is there someone, a friend, family, anyone, who can go with you?  It’s nothing to be ashamed of, and quite understandable, that you would be frightened, especially if the last doc backed out on you, for whatever or whosever reason.  I’m still always scared whenever I go to my p-doc, even though he’s never given me any reason to be and I always come out of there feeling a lot better about things. sleeveless

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Tomboy, go to www.members.tripod.com/~butterfly_kisses/depression It’s a very good website on cutting by Andrea (who has posted here in the past) and who was 16 when she wrote her intro to the site.  This site includes a number of individual links and access to the Bodies Under Siege and the Cutters and Self Injurers webrings. Hmmmmmmmm (C-sharp, your friendly note) – Neil – – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – Tomboy, get rid of your razors, NOW! And, if you need to then by all means call your parents. There’s nothing wrong with having some support when you go see a new pdoc. I damn well took mine with me. My father has held me like I was still a little boy while I was freaking out more than once. The only shame in needing help is not to try to get it. Tigger bouncy, trouncy, flouncy, pouncy, fun, fun, fun, fun, FUN!!! I can never find where I posted. I am in pain and anguish.  I am going to see a NEW psychiatrist tomorrow. I’m FRIGHTENED!  The last one abandoned me, plain and simple but I know it was his problem.  How will I know if she’s not a kook? I will be alone for almost a week housesitting.  I want to cut.  I am so anxious.  I don’t know what to do but call my therapist who will either ask me to come in (for what???)  I stopped cutting long enough for the last wounds to heal but I will be alone and no one will see the bandaids to hide the marks I have made.  I feel like a child, unsupervised.  I don’t know what to do. I’m almost middle age now and feel like I want to call my parents and see if one of them will go with me to see the new psychiatrist "Mommy Hold my hand" I’m so confused and depressed that I can’t think right. SOMEONE WRITE, POST, JUST TALK TO ME.  NO ADVICE NEEDED; JUST A FRIENDLY NOTE?

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I can never find where I posted. I am in pain and anguish.  I am going to see a NEW psychiatrist tomorrow. I’m FRIGHTENED!  The last one abandoned me, plain and simple but I know it was his problem.  How will I know if she’s not a kook? I will be alone for almost a week housesitting.  I want to cut.  I am so anxious.  I don’t know what to do but call my therapist who will either ask me to come in (for what???)  I stopped cutting long enough for the last wounds to heal but I will be alone and no one will see the bandaids to hide the marks I have made.  I feel like a child, unsupervised.  I don’t know what to do.  I’m almost middle age now and feel like I want to call my parents and see if one of them will go with me to see the new psychiatrist "Mommy Hold my hand"  I’m so confused and depressed that I can’t think right.   SOMEONE WRITE, POST, JUST TALK TO ME.  NO ADVICE NEEDED; JUST A FRIENDLY NOTE?

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Just a friendly note.  Good luck with your new psychiatrist.  I’ve mostly had trouble getting an appointment.  Finally got insurance to kick in and an appointment next week with a guy they tell me is excellent.  From what you say ,  you have the possiblility at least of finding someone who cares. Good luck and let us know how it goes. Sincerely,  Dave

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Tomboy, get rid of your razors, NOW! And, if you need to then by all means call your parents. There’s nothing wrong with having some support when you go see a new pdoc. I damn well took mine with me. My father has held me like I was still a little boy while I was freaking out more than once. The only shame in needing help is not to try to get it. Tigger bouncy, trouncy, flouncy, pouncy, fun, fun, fun, fun, FUN!!! – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I can never find where I posted. I am in pain and anguish.  I am going to see a NEW psychiatrist tomorrow. I’m FRIGHTENED!  The last one abandoned me, plain and simple but I know it was his problem.  How will I know if she’s not a kook? I will be alone for almost a week housesitting.  I want to cut.  I am so anxious.  I don’t know what to do but call my therapist who will either ask me to come in (for what???)  I stopped cutting long enough for the last wounds to heal but I will be alone and no one will see the bandaids to hide the marks I have made.  I feel like a child, unsupervised.  I don’t know what to do.  I’m almost middle age now and feel like I want to call my parents and see if one of them will go with me to see the new psychiatrist "Mommy Hold my hand"  I’m so confused and depressed that I can’t think right. SOMEONE WRITE, POST, JUST TALK TO ME.  NO ADVICE NEEDED; JUST A FRIENDLY NOTE?

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