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(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Ruth)))))))))))))))))))))))))))) cut up my legs bad..
:-*( and i want to take a load more tablets..ive already taken a few too many.
:-*( i feel like such a piece of shit.
Feel it BUT NOT IT an excuse to cry.
dont think anyone needs an excuse lying piece of shit.
Feel it BUT NOT IT i can’t help anymore and ive let so many people down already since forever
Feel it BUT NOT IT im not quite sure why im still here, because ive lost already.
Feel it BUT NOT IT – sorry just felt like saying it again. You are here for a reason, just you cant see it. Please trust me on this one i don’t know why i’m still running.
Because if you stop – then we all pop. You stop, I stop.
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im not quite sure why im still here, because ive lost already. it should be over now. i don’t know why i’m still running.
((((((((((((((((((((((((((ruth)))))))))))))))))))))))))) Ruth, if you were meant to be gone already, you would be. Fortunately for the people who care about you, you weren’t. I’m really sorry about your cat, I know it really does hurt when pets die….. I also know this letterI’m writing now is a corny peice of shit so I’ll shut up. *hug* "If his brains ran down, how could he talk?!" -Jack "It happens to people all the time, Jack" -Dorthy
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You arent a lying piece of shit. What you say here sounds honest. I believe you this.. And there is at least one small reason to be still here: Though i dont really know you i like you. You hugged me. I like this. And want this. So please stay. (((((((((ruth))))))))) J. http://193.171.249.108/~jrichter/ <- Nice quotes and so.. http://petition.eurolinux.org for a software patent free europe
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Hello Ruth , What can I say but , you are going through one hell of a bad spell and taking too many tablets is not the answer , you must keep talking about your feelings and your pain . the more we talk about our problems the quicker we will overcome them . You must try to find someone that will listen to you , and try to understand your pain . I know nothing of your problems , But I do read all the letters on the n/g , and I do see how much you have tried to help others , and in turn we can only offer you our cuddles , keep writing , keep talking , and don’t give in to it , you can feel well again . Love , Hugs and Teddy Bears . (((( Peter .))))) – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – found out today that a cat ive known for pretty much forever had to be put down (those who know me, don’t worry its not rocky) and anyway, i was..am upset..but this is too much..its like everything from lately has just realised it has an excuse to come pouring out and i cried and cried until i was almost sick and cut up my legs bad.. and i want to take a load more tablets..ive already taken a few too many. i feel like such a piece of shit. an excuse to cry. i feel so horrible already anyway…but i don’t know why i’m crying..at least..all this is about something else and i hate i need an excuse to be real. but im not being real because im such a lying piece of shit. ive been avoiding everyone and im sorry anyone out there who knows what im talking about because i can’t help anymore and ive let so many people down already since forever, so i don’t even want to try anymore. i’m so tired. i can’t fix any of this anymore. im not quite sure why im still here, because ive lost already. it should be over now. i don’t know why i’m still running. ruth ^^^^^ "And in the beginning there was nothing.. which exploded." ~Terry Pratchett
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found out today that a cat ive known for pretty much forever had to be put down (those who know me, don’t worry its not rocky) and anyway, i was..am upset..but this is too much..its like everything from lately has just realised it has an excuse to come pouring out and i cried and cried until i was almost sick and cut up my legs bad.. and i want to take a load more tablets..ive already taken a few too many. i feel like such a piece of shit. an excuse to cry. i feel so horrible already anyway…but i don’t know why i’m crying..at least..all this is about something else and i hate i need an excuse to be real. but im not being real because im such a lying piece of shit. ive been avoiding everyone and im sorry anyone out there who knows what im talking about because i can’t help anymore and ive let so many people down already since forever, so i don’t even want to try anymore. i’m so tired. i can’t fix any of this anymore. im not quite sure why im still here, because ive lost already. it should be over now. i don’t know why i’m still running. ruth ^^^^^ "And in the beginning there was nothing.. which exploded." ~Terry Pratchett
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Try starting a trend in this newsgroup where you put ‘ (ASDT) ‘ before every message. Then all one has to do is retrieve messages automatically, or manually, with (ASDT) in the header. Simple!
im sorry – i dont understand what you mean. i get the part about putting ASDT before the messages – but how do you retrieve messages manually? the only way i know of getting the messages here – is to open the news group and there they all are. theres a button in preferences to filter junk posts – but it doesnt work. your post with the ASDT heading was hidden in a thread – and didnt show up til i pushed the — subject button. mayeb since we’ve got an old computer i cant do whatever it is you suggested? coyote
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(CoyoteMyst) writes: i get the part about putting ASDT before the messages – but how do you retrieve messages manually? the only way i know of getting the messages here – is to open the news group and there they all are.
not everyone can do that. I’d have to go through and manually delete the spam, so it’s not going to do some of us much good. My alternative is to use my other e-mai laccount on a different sip and do it, butthen I’d get junk mail there too. there isnt’ much way around it for those of us with few options. –Stephanie }-|-{
http://members.aol.com/smadronia/ "Life is pain, Highness. Anyone who tells you different is selling something." Westley, The Princess Bride
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this place used to be nice coyote "I’ll stop the world and melt with you." ~Modern English~
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(CoyoteMyst) writes: this place used to be nice coyote "I’ll stop the world and melt with you." ~Modern English~
I agree, I guess things change… –Stephanie }-|-{
http://members.aol.com/smadronia/ "Life is pain, Highness. Anyone who tells you different is selling something." Westley, The Princess Bride
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I agree, I guess things change…
i wish there was some way of getting rid of all the porn messages. when i first came here – there wasnt anything like that being posted coyote "I’ll stop the world and melt with you." ~Modern English~
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i wish there was some way of getting rid of all the porn messages. when i first
came here – there wasnt anything likethat being posted coyote "I’ll stop the world and melt withyou." ~Modern English~ I agree, there isn’t much that can be done. We’d have to move the newsgroup to a mailing lsit or a message board, and I don’t think anyone would want ot do that… –Stephanie }-|-{
http://members.aol.com/smadronia/ "Life is pain, Highness. Anyone who tells you different is selling something." Westley, The Princess Bride
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The Spam Kings and Queens do a global type post to groups with ‘SEX’, ‘TEEN", ‘NUDE’, etc…….All you’d have to do is change the name of the newsgroup or meet at one of the unused newsgrops, like alt.die.barney.die. The current solution for most groups is to add the name of the group in parenthesis before the message. EX: (ASDT). This way you sort alphabetically and only retrieve messages with this pre-text. – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -I agree, there isn’t much that can be done. We’d have to move the newsgroup to a mailing lsit or a message board, and I don’t think anyone would want ot do that…
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writes: .All you’d have to do is change the name of the newsgroup or meet at one of the unused newsgrops, like alt.die.barney.die.
not necessarily true. I belong to ne other newsgroup called alt.what-the becuase there was an actual thread going about 2 years ago. Now I’m the only one left becuase everyone that come through now is a spammer. So changing ot al ess known one isn’tthe greatest option, besides, this is out place, and htey have no ethical right ot be doing that here. –Stephanie }-|-{
http://members.aol.com/smadronia/ "Life is pain, Highness. Anyone who tells you different is selling something." Westley, The Princess Bride
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Try the first idea if you don’t like the second one. Besides, just because you don’t think spam is right or ethical, does not mean it is going to go away. Try starting a trend in this newsgroup where you put ‘ (ASDT) ‘ before every message. Then all one has to do is retrieve messages automatically, or manually, with (ASDT) in the header. Simple! And I’m sure ‘newbies’ will catch on soon. Anywise, this is what a few of the other groups are doing and it seems to make it easier to retrieve the good stuff and ignore the spam. Now if you just want to argue, lets change the subject to sex or something more interesting! =) L8r G8r – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – writes: .All you’d have to do is change the name of the newsgroup or meet at one of the unused newsgrops, like alt.die.barney.die. not necessarily true. I belong to ne other newsgroup called alt.what-the becuase there was an actual thread going about 2 years ago. Now I’m the only one left becuase everyone that come through now is a spammer. So changing ot al ess known one isn’tthe greatest option, besides, this is out place, and htey have no ethical right ot be doing that here. –Stephanie }-|-{ http://members.aol.com/smadronia/ "Life is pain, Highness. Anyone who tells you different is selling something." Westley, The Princess Bride
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Hey there… Kristy L. wrote you know what pisses me off..how people can be so kind and caring on the outside..but so cold and mean when they dont get what they want..take Luke for example i chose my bf(livs near me) over him (in Scotland) becuase Luke made me and hes now very bitter and spiteful….insulting me telling me to kill myself and threatening to mailbomb me if i dont take him off my ignore list…tsk tsk..people can be SO immature
’scuse me Kristy, i was just blowing off steam. and they dont know the full story. and im certainly not going to tell them (cause itd hurt you, and you not telling them proves that im right about this, wow, that hardly ever happens these days), and i doubt you will either. Luke
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you know what pisses me off..how people can be so kind and caring on the outside..but so cold and mean when they dont get what they want..take Luke for example i chose my bf(livs near me) over him (in Scotland) becuase Luke made me and hes now very bitter and spiteful….insulting me telling me to kill myself and threatening to mailbomb me if i dont take him off my ignore list…tsk tsk..people can be SO immature
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I’m still living because my heart keeps throbbing, my lungs pumping, my liver cleansing….. I feel DEAD inside. I don’t want my life anymore; I don’t have any courage or energy left to try and cope with it all; I’m heading for rockbottom…. That’s the bottom line: I have now only regrets left and no more dreams which makes me a very old man…. Please don’t ask me to tell it all, I have even trouble (an had great doubts about) sending this one…. Just keep on abiding with me, keep on ’smiling benevolently upon me’ as a chatpal so movingly said and send me good vibes…. This god of mine is a goddamemned sucker……. Still, if you all regularly take your vitamines and drink your milk and honey before bedtime, you just might make it to the next millenium 
(Thought I might end this posting in a lol-way…..) Dominique
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I’m still living because my heart keeps throbbing, my lungs pumping, my liver cleansing….. I feel DEAD inside. I don’t want my life anymore; I don’t have any courage or energy left to try and cope with it all; I’m heading for rockbottom…. That’s the bottom line: I have now only regrets left and no more dreams which makes me a very old man…. Please don’t ask me to tell it all, I have even trouble (an had great doubts about) sending this one….
Dominique, I am sorry you feel so bad… I care about you. Please email if you need to talk or get on AIM or ICQ.. toto There is no sound, no cry in all the world that can be heard unless someone listens .. source unknown
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Dominique *huuugs* If you wanna talk, you can email me, okay? And don’t worry, you don’t have to say what’s wrong, you can just tell us you’re hurting. I know exactly what you mean by that hang on…for all of us if not for yourself… Love Always, Laura
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That’s because I was taking care of it then. But, since another user accused ME of being a spammer (because of the nospam messages I have to post to get rid of the spam) I stopped doing it.
would you think about doing it again? it seems like most people would rather not have all the spam showing up – and it wsant right for whoever to accuse you of being the spammer if you were the one getting rid of it. i think if you or somebody else was willing to get rid of the spam for this news group it would make it better coyote
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I agree w/CoyoteMist. You would be doing the group a great service. – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – That’s because I was taking care of it then. But, since another user accused ME of being a spammer (because of the nospam messages I have to post to get rid of the spam) I stopped doing it. would you think about doing it again? it seems likste most people would rather not have all the spam showing up – and it wsant right for whoever to accuse you of being the spammer if you were the one getting rid of it. i think if you or somebody else was willing to get rid of the spam for this news group it would make it better coyote
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i just cut myself about a quarter of an inch deep and about four inches across i hope it stops bleeding i dont want to fucking die somebody help me
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i just cut myself about a quarter of an inch deep and about four inches across i hope it stops bleeding i dont want to fucking die somebody help me
To stop the bleeding, use a clean cloth and direct pressure and elevate your arm so that the blood flows away from the cut. See the pictures here http://www.adam.com/imagepage/1067.htm?topic=TOP000000000000000000000… Call a hotline or get to an emergency room. toto There is no sound, no cry in all the world that can be heard unless someone listens .. source unknown
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9 stitches. 
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9 stitches.
omg…are you okay now?? hang in there…and please please for your own self…don’t do this again… Love Always, Laura "I am the Laur and the Laur is not mocked!"
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I won’t do it again for a while at least, simply for the fact that I can’t handle the way my parents deal with it.. It gets on my nerves.. Not to mention getting stitches isn’t really that fun, not that I mind the pain, but it’s different when someone else is doing it, once you lose control of it, it’s not as empowering.. – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -9 stitches. omg…are you okay now?? hang in there…and please please for your own self…don’t do this again… Love Always, Laura "I am the Laur and the Laur is not mocked!"
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how long have you been doing this? – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – i just cut myself about a quarter of an inch deep and about four inches across i hope it stops bleeding i dont want to fucking die somebody help me
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9 stitches.
But you are alive… toto There is no sound, no cry in all the world that can be heard unless someone listens .. source unknown
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I am depressed. (why I am posting here obviosly). I have no friends, people who used to be my friends stopped liking me, I’m not sure why. There are people, they hang around me, or I hang around with them at school, but I feel that they don’t really like me, am I paranoid? Also, someone who I thought really was my friend didn’t invite me to his party, when I asked him, he said that they all told him not to invite me,so he did. -Joolz
Good 4 u asking that guy, I would have just been all bummed out and not said anything. I hope he felt like a fuck nut for not inviting you. It sounds like u got a bit unpopular with your old friends, that sucks. Here’s the deal though, when you’re kids you hang around with people close by, maybe kids who are friends of your parents but generally neighbors. There’s a point when you’re growing up that those groups begin to split up, they might be the tightest groups of friends you can imagine, but they existed because of location etc. Then you start to hang out more with people that you have more in common with. That’s generalized but it’s pretty true for most guys. I think it just naturally happens, and if it’s happened around you it’s bound to be a bit of a bitch when you wonder where all your friends went. I think that’s what’s happened with you, ya think?
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<< There are people, they hang around me, or I hang around with them at school, but I feel that they don’t really like me, am I paranoid? I feel like that too…I feel like that at school, other places (like here for some odd reason)…. I hope youre not paranoid…. i hope I’m not either…. << Also, someone who I thought really was my friend didn’t invite me to his party, when I asked him, he said that they all told him not to invite me,so he did. ((((((((((joolz))))))))))) "I’ve always felt a kinship with Willy Wonka. Even at that age, I could tell that he was a flawed hero, an icon for the forbidden." -Marilyn Manson "So the man was left by himself, incomplete, and all alone…"
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I am depressed. (why I am posting here obviosly). I have no friends, people who used to be my friends stopped liking me, I’m not sure why. There are people, they hang around me, or I hang around with them at school, but I feel that they don’t really like me, am I paranoid? Also, someone who I thought really was my friend didn’t invite me to his party, when I asked him, he said that they all told him not to invite me,so he did. -Joolz
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I got in a car accident this afternoon.
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Oh damn, are you okay ? Once we know that i’ll ask about your car and the other people involved. i hope you ARE okay. fallout
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I got in a car accident this afternoon.
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I’m alright except for my back which hurts like a bitch (and will be worse in the morning.) My friend who was in the car is okay, the person broad-sided me (hit the drivers side – me). The guy who hit me drove off, but I remained clam and called the police and got an accident report filed etc. I just feel real guilty about it though.
| Oh damn, are you okay ? | Once we know that i’ll ask about your car and the other people involved. | i hope you ARE okay. | fallout |
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i’m glad you’re as good as you are but i hope you go to a doctor to have your back checked out. Like you said, it’s going to feel worse in the morning. Try some Advil or something tonight before going to bed. Were you able to give the cops a description of the other car so they can catch the jerk ? i’m glad your friend is okay too. Is your car totaled? Getting broadsided i would guess it’s probably not drivable. i hope they catch the guy and that you are able to get a new car out of it. Keep us informed of how you’re doing okay ? fallout
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I’m alright except for my back which hurts like a bitch (and will be worse in the morning.) My friend who was in the car is okay, the person broad-sided me (hit the drivers side – me). The guy who hit me drove off, but I remained clam and called the police and got an accident report filed etc. I just feel real guilty about it though. | Oh damn, are you okay ? | Once we know that i’ll ask about your car and the other people involved. | i hope you ARE okay. | fallout |
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Banned, don’t guilttrip on this accident! The other car hitting you fully in the side is a ‘result’ of zillion variables, only one of which may be e.g. a short moment of abscence of mind, the other driver didn’t like the colour of your car and so on….. Take good care of your backpains. Talk about this with the friend who was with you, process the aftermath of emotions, shock and so on… (((banned))) — "I have not failed. I’ve just found 10,000 ways that won’t work." –Thomas Alva Edison (1847-1931) "I don’t think I’m ever more ‘aware’ than I am right after I hit my thumb with a hammer." - Jack Handey – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – I’m alright except for my back which hurts like a bitch (and will be worse in the morning.) My friend who was in the car is okay, the person broad-sided me (hit the drivers side – me). The guy who hit me drove off, but I remained clam and called the police and got an accident report filed etc. I just feel real guilty about it though. | Oh damn, are you okay ? | Once we know that i’ll ask about your car and the other people involved. | i hope you ARE okay. | fallout |
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had such a bad day again yesterday. can’t take this anymore! FUCKING SHIT! damn just n/m :’(
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I’m alright except for my back which hurts like a bitch (and will be worse in the morning.) My friend who was in the car is okay, the person broad-sided me (hit the drivers side – me). The guy who hit me drove off, but I remained clam and called the police and got an accident report filed etc. I just feel real guilty about it though.
That guy was probably drunk, and a jerk. Maybe the cops will catch him between eating a donut and beating some kid. You’re lucky you’re not hurt worse, but that’s little consolation to a pain in the back and a screwed up car. Some girl ran into me once when I was sitting at a stop light. Her mom had bought insurance from some guy who never turned in the policy. So I didn’t even get my car fixed. I had to drive around with a smashed rear end until a front wheel fell off one day. I just took my books and left the car there for the buzzards. My neck did bother me for several days, but it was mostly ok after about a week. Let us know how you’re doing.
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Maybe the cops will catch him between eating a donut and beating some kid.
Thought i was just anti-cop.
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Commi bastards, I hate hit and runs and people who run!!!!
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hang in kristy, i know what it feels like. i’ve kinda been through it myself. i’ve found that if you try and talk to people it helps. just what ever you do don’t go to a shrink they will only make you worse. life dose get better eventually. you just have to hold on. i don’t know if this will help at all, but killing your self is not the answer. good luck stew – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – im home sick from school.i’ve been throwing up having headaches and feeling dizzy. went to the doctor. they think its a stomach virus. it may be but i think the depression doesnt help ive been feeling lonlier and lonlier each day i feel like no one understands or cares my parents think its just a stage that everyone gets depressed sure at least once a person will be depressed but i really want to die i dont know how much longer i can go on i really dont want to live i have no ambition what so ever i have nothing to live for and my future looks blurry i dont know what to do i cry a lot i used to cut myself a lot but i dont anymore cuz it doesnt do anything i feel no pain god someone please kill me ill pay u since im too chicken shit to do it myself please
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im home sick from school.i’ve been throwing up having headaches and feeling dizzy. went to the doctor. they think its a stomach virus. it may be but i think the depression doesnt help ive been feeling lonlier and lonlier each day i feel like no one understands or cares my parents think its just a stage that everyone gets depressed sure at least once a person will be depressed but i really want to die i dont know how much longer i can go on i really dont want to live i have no ambition what so ever i have nothing to live for and my future looks blurry i dont know what to do i cry a lot i used to cut myself a lot but i dont anymore cuz it doesnt do anything i feel no pain god someone please kill me ill pay u since im too chicken shit to do it myself please
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