15 year old dealing with Depression and needs HELP!!!
Question:
Hi everyone, I decided to write because I am feeling really alone and confused. I am a manic-depressive, I have ADD, OCD, and anxity. I am on Effexor 350mgs a day. I have been dignosed with depression for about 4 years now. What scared me is a while back I was reading my diary from Kindergarion and it said "I wish I was dead" I think that I had this diease and yes depression is a disease all my life. I have many problems, but its kind of easing while I get older. I cry every day, and every day I always say to myself " I wish I was dead" I am in 10th grade and my grades finally went up this year. I have been thinking about going into the hospital for this, but I don’t know. with this school and dance its kind of hard. I always want to commit suicide but Celine Dion always stops me. I hate living and I just want the pain and sadness to go away. I know many of you probably know what I am talking about. Its really hard to live my life day in and day out. What hurts so much is that no one understand me or how I feel. I feel like I don’t even know who i am any more. Every day I am someone new, and every minute my mood changes. People call me Moodswing that is how bad it is getting. I think i might be bipoloar. I just need people to talk to that know how it feels to be us. Please someone who can realte to what I am saying that can help me with this. Tahnk you for reading this. Hope to hear from someone soon. =’( "Celine Dion is my hero, she saved my life. She has touched my heart with her love in so many ways. My only wish and dream is to meet and thank her one day." ~Danielle Love Celine Dion’s #1 Fan forever, DDCeline AKA Danielle
Response:
Hi Boo, I too have had depression for a longtime. My family has never understood it. But my depression stems from abuse. I never felt loved and I am surprise I did not kill myself when I was a teenager. But the biggest mistake is to think suicide is your answer. Try doing exercise and positive thinking. Read all you can on depression and you will understand what you are dealing with. I feel like I have no emotions when I am at my lowest. I have a child and a husband so I cant afford to feel like I dont have love for them. But they realize that it is not my fault. Just remember this to will pass. I was on the same medicine you are on except it was not for me. I have severe anxiety attacks. So my doctor put me on Paxil 40 mg a day. So far so good. I still fill down because I have gained weight since I have been on all the different medication. But I have learn one thing, don’t care what others think. Whether you skinny or fat they are still gone to talk. I hope your mom and dad are big help. Because you are to young to be so depressed. You still have your whole life ahead of you. Please try to write a journal and keep track of all the things that make you feel good. And if you think you have bipolar. Get a 100watt soft white light bulb and put it in a lamp. Look at the light for at least 30 minutes or more. The reason for bipolar is from the lack of sunlight. I tried what I told you and it does seem to help. Ask your mom first. I dont want you to burn your house down. Excuse any spelling Eve
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